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 The SALT LAKE FELLOWS Blog 

Entering Courage

10/9/2019

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I was listening to Typology, the enneagram podcast, before I moved to Salt Lake, and I had an interesting revelation about two simple definitions. Prior to listening, I thought the words “bravery” and “courage” were completely synonymous. Although similar, they carry an important difference that altered the way I view myself today. Bravery is the lack of fear which gives one the ability to encounter risky situations, but courage is knowing and feeling the fear of said situation and doing it anyways. The guest speaker on the podcast mentioned that she equates this definitional breakthrough with knowing the fear and choosing the potential greater outcome that follows. Perhaps one can go through life completely fearless, but I am going to say that’s pretty unrealistic considering we are broken humans with little to no control over our lives. Personally, fears of all shapes and sizes occur, but it is how I reframe
the risky situation and navigate with God towards the potential greater outcome. This leads into why I am a Salt Lake Fellow walking in courage. ​
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Throughout the past several years I have been dealt with circumstances that have molded me into a home body. I have been given the best family, and I want us to walk around in a danger, grief, and disease-free bubble. As I mentioned above, we cannot control whether or not we are completely freed from those heartbreaking outcomes. Not only have I been instilled with innate fear, but I have lived it out in a heartbreaking outcome.  Every day presents a new battle, decision, etc. I’ve found it hard for my mind not to go to the worst case scenario. I think it’s a defense mechanism… in case it does happen then I have already mentally prepared myself for that letdown.

I have also found that navigating fear and uncertainty in that way is exhausting and essentially saying that I do not trust my Lord to give me the best plans imaginable. If, in those best plans, there’s still heartbreak, my distrust says I do not believe he will hold and comfort me like He has already done before. Therefore, when I encounter the small/mundane grip-holds of distrust, I need to reframe and trust that stepping into courage from the Lord will direct my best plans, regardless if letdowns and heartbreak are intertwined.
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​Fighting the enemy in the mundane reminds us that He is with us and for us in the small, so of course he is standing with His arms open for us in the big and inevitable trials. How freeing! With this freedom, I chose to apply across the country, away from my family and friends into 10 months of a looming question mark. Yet, I felt at peace. I know God gives this restless heart peace for a reason, and that is to remind me it is from HIM. I do not find peace on my own, I do not find comfort on my own-- I find it in the One who already fought for me so I do not have to tire at the countless unsuccessful attempts. 
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Lord, You have replaced unnecessary fear and instilled peace and trust which transforms this experience into one of growth. I’ve gained friends who love and champion me well while we navigate this new chapter together. I learned that trusting You allows me to trust myself, knowing that I do not have to carry all the unknowns-- I can enjoy life in peace and delight in Your comfort and sovereignty. Thank you for giving me the courage to step out into the unknown.


​Megan Sievers

SLF Class of 19-20
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Flying Anne link
8/16/2021 09:53:02 am

I enjoyed this post thanks for sharing.

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